Over the past couple years, my body has slowly started hating certain foods. I hear this is common from many women I’ve talked to especially in regards to dairy, so about 75% of the time, I try to be “healthy” (as defined by me). 😉
Just a few months ago, I started experiencing reeeaaally intense pain when eating certain foods. I could not pinpoint what it was though because it would always happen in the mornings before I ate anything. I would wonder if it was my lunch? The snack? Dinner? Dessert?
All that to say, I knew that if I wanted to feel better, I had to adjust what I was eating. For the month of February, I switched to vegan. The timing was perfect because I watched Cowspiracy at the end of January, which opened my eyes to not only animal treatment, but the environmental impacts of a meat-heavy diet. In my constant effort to re-learn & question everything I’ve believed to be “true” or “right,” documentaries like this help me in that process.
It’s February 21 and only three times have I “cheated” on this little vegan-ish diet. Two out of the three times I experienced that knife-stabbing-stomach pain. I was super frustrated by it, but also grateful to be able to link a meal I had eaten to the pain I was experiencing. Needless to say, it continues to affirm that I do need to stay in this rhythm of being mostly plant-based.
I’m trying to embrace it rather than fight it.
So much of what I do day-to-day centers around food & the community it creates. It shifts the meals at Thanksgiving and the spontaneous walks to fro yo. It means I have to actually think before I grab that slice of cheesecake or say yes to a jog over to Snookies.
If I’m creating the most meaningful life possible, I know I have to do this. To feel good, to be a great friend & spouse, to enjoy nights out instead of feeling miserable inside, to travel happily. I have to decide, like really decide, that this isn’t about right or wrong, good or bad, or any of that.
It’s about freedom. So here I am, knowing that I will be making this decision each & every day until it becomes a habit.